I’m usually one of those people who give God an attitude when He wants me to make moves for His Kingdom.
“I’m not the right person.”
“I don’t have the skill.”
“I don’t have the personality.”
“I don’t have to courage.”
“I’m not really hearing Him.”
In my whining and pouting, I was brought to the story of Moses in Exodus 3 and 4. God came to Moses in a burning bush and explained to him His plan to save the Israelites from their captivity in Egypt. He wanted to use Moses as his vessel. Many of us know the story: Moses was called to help bring the Israelites out of Egypt; he pleaded with Pharaoh many times; Pharaoh kept saying no; God brought plagues to show the Egyptians His power; Pharaoh eventually released the Egyptians, after his first born son was dead; the Israelites almost got out, but Pharaoh changed his mind; God used Moses’ staff to part the sea and allow the Israelites to reach freedom.
The part that we don’t often talk about is that Moses doubted his ability to be used by God. God called to Moses, but Moses lacked the skill and confidence to carry out God’s plan.
Moses said to the Lord, “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”
Exodus 4:10 NIV
God was calling Moses to be his spokesperson. Moses struggled with speaking. He wasn’t eloquent or good with his words. He didn’t think that he could be the powerful orator to bring the Israelites out of Egypt. The truth was, God didn’t need a professional, he needed someone with a willing heart.
How often do we go to God with that attitude? Maybe He has put a ministry on your heart, or called you as a missionary. Maybe He wants you to lead worship, or even has called you to be a pastor, and you don’t feel like you have the skill to carry on His will. Maybe you’re a Moses.
What did God say in response to Moses’ insecurities?
The Lord said to him, “Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”
He gave us our personalities, our skills, our talents, and if He has called you to do His work, He’s also going to teach you how to carry it out. Among His many roles, He is our helper and our teacher. You don’t need to fear, because He is always with you.
Like I said, I’m one of those complainers. Recently, God told me to write a song. I often don’t feel confident in my writing, but God gave me the peace to know that it wasn’t my words, but His and He would tell me what to do. I just need to listen and trust.
Unfortunately, Moses didn’t fully trust. God wanted to use Him, but his insecurities got in the way. God sent a helper to Moses (his brother Aaron) and God’s will was still carried out.
His will WILL be done. He wants to use YOU. He promises to help you and teach you. Will you trust in Him or will you trust in your insecurities?